anil gupta's blog

will my prayers for your peace be invain
now that i have lost the battle
to keep the ship on course again
with no concern for
what i lost
should i board the train
and leave for new shores, new stops
where i will be stranger and will not be asked
why did
i resist the clouds of dark intentions
whose only purpose of being around
seemed to be
to paint my sky black  again and again

while harvesting smiles
i also cut some angular anxities
from your garden
you had asked me to cut grass only
but i picked up the weeds too
some of which were flowering and rather attractively
i brought those seeds and planted in my garden
today i have more weeds but with their flowers
than the plants
i had sown
why should i not then celebrate the randomness of weeds
and their weird desire to overatake
all the patches including the ones which were
footprints, untilled
uncared

do you really care

whther flowers offered to you wither away

or their fgragrance lingers on

in the heart fo all those who touch your feet and stay

around till u bless them

by your indifference

why play this game of stedfastness

amidst so much compassion and kindness

are u afraid that you might become predictable

aaj diya ek aur bhuj gaya hai

kal tak jo merey saath tha,

ab kyun achanak chuk gaya hai

kaisey koi ab jaan payey

kis safar ka nishan aaj mit gaya hai

aaj diya ek aur bhuj gaya

bahut guman tha, ki saath ham chal payenge

lekin kyun achanak tumko saathi

ek smanadar kaal ka, kyun is tarah pee gaya hai

terey adhoorey sapno ko kya ab

merey andherey aakaash mein, taron ki tarah see gaya hai

when freedom  is not flying free
when freedom is not breaking away
when freedom is not denying the bonds
i am then always free
for i am bound
all around
by the bonds

aaj yeh sawal bhi tumney poochh hi dala

aakhir kis intazaar mein tha itna samaya nikala

kyun nahin poochha ki tabiyat kaisi hai

kyun sirf anuman se hi man ko sambhala

kaisey batata, kitna aatur that milney ko

lekin har baar meri koshish ko kuchh naya naam de dala

did you see,  the cold wind has started knocking the door

do not close it tight

nor light the fire so early

shiver a bit

suffer a bit

who knows that you begin to notice

the warmth even in this coldness

ek addhar hai jo mujhey tootaney nahin deta
kisee bhi museebat key ankur man mein phootaney nahin deta
ummeedon ke jangal mey jiya hun main kuchh is tarah,
aakhir koi to yakeen hai jo ek tinkey ka sahara chhootaney nahin deta

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tumney kai baar poochha, kyun kis dhun mein bhaga ja raha hun main
kis manjil ki talash hai jo itna khud ko gala raha hun main
kaisey batata hai ki kitna dard hai merey dil mein unkey liyey
jinkey man mein ummeed ki kiran jagata ja rahan hun main

—–

jab kabhi thak jao, lagey ki ab aagey chalney mein hai thodi mushkil
kisee kareebi se chaut lagey, aur dooriyan ban jayey teri mustakbil
aisey main meri ek baat ho sakey to, yad rakhna
kisee bhi najdeekiyon ko tohmat mat dena, gum ho jayegi warna apni manjil

when lights are eloquent, and the shadows are quiet

you are away

amongst the flowers in your garden

aroma of assurances

arms of intimacy

are stretched in vain

why should trail of light

not lead you to walk up the path

what are you waiting for

why this indecisiveness

what are you asking for

which this sky can not offer

why not create a new sky

by tearing the tears

off the idols u worshiped  so long

when lights paved your way

i kept quiet and decide to stay

where i was, lest i disturb

the joyful

moments,

the drops of dew

that dare not curb

whatever you seek

in life now or later

may there be solace

and sufficiency around

if even for only a few steps

i could  walk and add some

sparklle

should i feel bad, that it was not

for long

how do i communicate

my forest is on fire,
to this barren place,

of course,

you do not belong