will my prayers for your peace be invain

will my prayers for your peace be invain
now that i have lost the battle
to keep the ship on course again
with no concern for
what i lost
should i board the train
and leave for new shores, new stops
where i will be stranger and will not be asked
why did
i resist the clouds of dark intentions
whose only purpose of being around
seemed to be
to paint my sky black  again and again