why are we alone

no, if every body understood what i am thinking at that moment,
i may be thrown out
of corridor of concern and compassion
let some thing remain un-understood
no hatred,
no anger
no revenge
not because it is not natural
but because it consumes the energy which i need to
placate my inner self
no, let sweet lingering aroma remain
in my varandah
i will forgive those
who did not come up to my expectations,
but how do i forgive myself
when i fall in my own eyes
so leave me alone
thats what we say
but can we be really alone
in this world of conversations

why will i wait so long

why will i wait for so long
when teh sunset passed one after another
and the ray of light
remained elusive
the one on which would have ridden
the queen of quietitude
and flown me away
in the abyss of nothingness

dont blame me

dont blame me
why the cold pack is not cool enough
why does the pain hurt so much
why do i talk to my friends
in your presence
why
shoudl i rather do such thing behind you,
why should i be honest
why should honesty hurt

trade off

can we trade off any thing, any one,
een the one whose presence in the world
began through our indulgence.
what if
the pleasures of the world
take away
ring of authenticity
and leave behind scars
of sighs
sighs
deep
sullen
silent sighs