curiosity, concern, compassion and collaboration
my prayers are
not intended to be answered
yet i hope that you will respond
this vain desire makes us all
aspire for what we do not deserve
may i hope that
you will bless me
O Kaali
waves are furious
and shores are
tired
yet sea does not give up
let us pray
for wellbeing
of all
those who
deserve your grace
let us keep walking
no matter at what pace
i have loved to be torn
by those who had
faith in me and had borne,
my love and affection, no matter
whethey call me names
or only shatter
their own self respect and desire to be pure
will you bestow your kindness
and forgive them
who do not know
how i swallowed the poison
when they lost their sense of proportion
my crime is my indulgence
even when i teach tolerance
May you decide
Kali whether i betrayed
any body’s faith
or dug a hole in my own boat
to make others smile
and remain afloat
in the flood of fury and anger
you still retain the mellowness and scatter
your kindness and forgivance
may the world understand,
how well one keeps the distance
you have known that i do not play
hide and seek
with stars that light my sky
only now and then,
otherwise i love to live in amavasya
at least you can not see tears in my eyes
and my voice
lures you into the garden of gratitude towards
you
that i
feel all over
you become so benign some times
and are so ruthless
in another moment
like a pendulum
your mood swings form one extreme to another
thats why, you harness so much energy
from life
tides once still, lose their purpose
you let me float aimlessly
like sea weed
may i fertilize your anger
lest you forget me and learn
to love
the placidity in the air
emanating from reassuring enclosure
when i tried to know Him
He changed so quickly His attitude towards me
i stopped trying
more i seek, more he changes
must be hard on Him
is not it??
why do you always forgive me
why do you lift the boat
about to sink
in the flood of failed desires
why have you repaired the sails
when storms had torn these away
you know that the wind was taking
my boat away from you,
yet you rejuvenated me
again and again
is that how
you punish
your favourite devotees!!!
do i still remain what i was
even after you have declared
the boundaries of what we thought
was accessible as
out of bound
why did you do it
is that the way you make us conscious
of what it means to deny,
delude and deceive ourselves
Kali 37
when wind could not blow the flowers i offered to you,
what do i do,
let the illusion persist
that you care
or do i just move on
quietly
assuming that these flowers have lost their freshness
goddess of cool breeze rejected these
why will u accept them
do u know Him
why did u ask
but why should i know Him
He always plays
the game of dice
loaded with his grace
he tries to be nice
why will you feel shy
when asked to defy
the norms of the world
and tell me to die
are you still hoping
that turmoils will take place
some clouds will move away
and some will stay,
with all your tears, just in case
why will a knot remain still tied
regardless of your dilemma
will the spoken word ever suffice
how do i tell you
when i said, go away,
i had actually lied