the purpose and pace of the journey

struggles of someone who loves me immensely
and yet has to negotiate
every small corner of comfort is not easy
when she falls down
i am not around
and when i am
am i there wholesomely
even a glance away is noticed and then
i wonder
what am i doing
should i settle down
and sediment,
or keep afloat some how
even if it
means allowing waves to determine
the purpose and pace of the journey