did i know, why i longed for your attention, Ma kaali

did i know why i longed
for your attention, Ma kaali
was it your grace
was it your meaningless anger
and a rare remorse
was it for your kindness
even when you knew i did not
deserve it
was it your faith
i love you
adore you
respect you
revere you
and worship you
so that you
may always
show me the way
whenever u notice me losing it
and lose i may
time and again,
if for no other reason
then to get your attention,
dont you ignore the rule bound-ones,
always, persistently