do not tell me that u want me to come along

do not tell me that u want me
to come along
you gave all the blessings
for filling my boat
with smiles, and substances that
you yourself never got
today when i hesitated
and let you take the next step
you again blessed me and asked me
to be happy and just be,
now that when i go
and go happily
you fill tears in your eyes
and make me feel sad
and suddenly realzing
that it will make me sad,
u smile, laugh and tell me
go and relish the new world
u gave me
because when i turned towards this way
you were hesitating, tied to
old annchors
faithfully filling your duty
twoards the waves that took off’
when you threw stones
in the river
as if to just count
the ripples
each pregnant with smiles
that you wish to see in the sky
and i wore blues
to tell you
that i want you to be happy too
though you will bless me and
not know, how to turn away your eyes
when u make me sad