will the autumn this year take away
the left over leaves from this old tree
till when will beetles hibernate
living below the bark, worn out at places
how will i stay still
when strong storms pass me by
O Kali! give me strength
to absorb all the silence
if we knew
if we knew
what we dare not
will we still love
if we listened to every call
will we still dare
may the dust settle, before storms begins anew
may the dust settle, before storms begins anew
who knows if it will rain at all
the heat has made the journey of dust
smoother
but then where will it settle
how do i know
my scarf is dusty
and so is my bag
but still there is some thing which is clean
is it because
it has not been judged
and thus not tagged
or is it because
it has repelled
every spirit
and substance
dust included
Kaaali 43 when sins devour the desires
when sins devour the desires
and the passion
does now own what it sires
you ask, as if it is enough
to live in this world
with all the dark deeds
casting their shadow
over the future steps
left to follow
Ma Kaali! i then surrender
to your wishes
and just aspire
whenever some blessings are left
in your basket
after showring them over all
your ardent devotees
you will empty those
over my path
lest i suffer
always from your contempt
and can not even hope
for a baptism by fire
rocks hold my secrets
rocks hold my secrets
river reveal my game plans
you cursed me no less
but why did not you ask the
dried leaves about what was the purpose
what was the destination
why did i love you all
why i did i nurture
in your eyes
my hopes and smiles
what will i take with me
when i actually die
will it not be these curses
will it be the ash left by the fire
you lighted in my storehouse
of memories
of all the struggles, and laughters in vain
and promises to change the world
just in our life time
just in case
harvest the curses, care for the weeds, who knows, when will scatter, the flowers of hope, their seeds
mind, as if it matters
mind, as if it matters
the mercy may be celebrated
they acknolwedged our feet
and chained our hands
to the hammers that break stones
for keeping us alive was a necessity
death destabilises
hunger mobilises
it gives hope
for those who rule
will some day find
difficult to cope
with their reasons, they have always tried
to justify menial over mental
as the only choice ahead
for do not we actually, think,
they just, do
and thats what we call
the paradox of persistence
with ideas, that have driven
many to despair
but some will defy,
and cause ruptures
that will be difficult to repair
will u now stir
tea in your cup
lest the creamy layer
obstructs
the smooth sip
and spoils the joy
of an intellectual
whose monopoly over the mind
has for millenia
explained
why he prospered, got recognised,
when the subjects just, struggled
why do i keep awake, when the world sleeps peacefully
why do i keep awake,
when the world sleeps peacefully
what is the anxiety
what is the worry
whose pain is central to the being
and whose vulnerabilities are calling for change
in our ways of knowing, feeling and doing
has the mix gone wrong
or have i lost my way
a drop of rain fell in an ocean
a drop of rain fell in an ocean
unable to persuade any wave
to change its course
it just stayed still
and then slowly sun rose
and carried it away
from the swollen arms of the ocean
to the sky
why do u cry
when the garden of curses blooms
when the garden of curses blooms
my friends do not know what i sowed
and what will i harvest now
but then soon, it will rain
and new growth of seeds
of smiles scattered all over
will flourish
may be the crevices of life
in which curses grew
may heal, by then