anil gupta's blog

do not be silly

move on as the ant did

picking up all her eggs

before the rain,

gather your memories

before these are washed away

in the flood of feelings this  time, so much rain

may not spare

the stains of subtle

simmerings that still take place in your heart

you do not find it possible to say no

when i plead for some disdain

you refuse to defy

bur do not just say, go

you  seem to be caught

between the desire to be good

for old times sake

and still

seem worried

about what really is your ought

 

trapped between the arms
of a tendril,
a promise to deliver
a fear to conquer


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in the twists of life
i found a way
slow breeze or a storm
my resolution will stay

who knows what works
time doesnt warn, it sucks
the life has its own  little daisy  dolls
if one listens, then some thing
or the other, really perks

summer does not burn the fire,
wood is moist ,
it rained whole night

do not ask me why did i get cold
do not tell me, why did i not
take care
you know
every time seasons change
and some leaves show
their signatures
i stand quietly under a tree
that has shed its leaves
and with its bare branches
await the drops of the rain
to clothe it
or cover it with shawl
of your deep gazes,
now,
will u not threaten me
by turning your eyes away
and
let me wait
for shade in this hot summer
till spring comes
and your gazes bloom on the branches
covering my sky with
smell
of your beaths

it rained last night again,
and washed away the footprints
on the sand of sad silences
sprayed on the path
that i had walked with you
once
now, do not remind me of the chatter of birds
who have not forgotten
my daily chore of feeding them
one by one
in the way they want
but still i remain
in wait
for a bird
that has nested
far away
among dark clouds
but on a tree
full of fragrant
flowers
that i prayed for

till when will these flowers wait
i wish to offer
to you every day
but then in your anxiety to be fair
to all devotees
you turn me always away

some times you remind
me of all the past affection
that came in my way
and some times
you observe
how insistence
never pleases you, come what may

i have tried and tried so hard
but could never understand your
wish, any way
my flowers will wither
and new crop may take long to come
will you let me at least come,
even if i keep my hands empty and
just pray

look away, so that i may steal a bit
i may rob some clouds of their sparkle
i may seduce the breeze
and make her change her mind
and direction
pl look away
do not burden me with
halo of adulation
it hurts
it distracts me from my vulnerabilities
just as dear runs here and there
and always misses
its own fragrance

my power
is my weakness
and let me be weak
but then please look away at least
your gaze constantly reminds me
of the curatins
that must hang over the windows
when i change
from cloack of power to
submlime sheets of misrable nothingness

packing the imaginations away
bundled into a bag
you had given me
to keep thigs safe
but i warned you
not to give me this beautiful bag
u did not agree
look
what have i packed into it
all your memories, neatly pressed
and polished
but i hope your bag will help
me keep them tightly held
away for present
and may be some day
when i get old
as you said, i might need them
will this bag hold
it for me till then

falling into a river
was like jumping over a ray
of light
passing through my courtyard
every morning
more i try to see the light
less i have it
it changes every time i see it
can i close my eyes
and escape this change
at least
for a few moments
lying at the bottom of the river
dead, still
and gone