What is ours and belongs to none

 

I have not asked you for long

To stay still and let me see

How you decided to mutate

The meanings of my smiles

Here, now and also there

Without any concern or care

How do I absorb the nectar

Of all the expectations

Without being able to assess

The limits with in which we see

What is ours and belongs to none

But then that also gets diluted

By the thoughts of the moments

When we are together,

Without a purpose, without any rush

Without a meaning, with no reason to hush

Any question, or anxious nights

Unable to decode, the time, or its flights

And some will just cope

And some will just cope

 

 

How does one eat the nut

Without breaking the shell

I am the shell

And you have a choice,

Break the shell and have my spirit

Or keep me intact and lose

Access to the core

You can also sow the nut in the ground

Let the sprout

Grow

And disperse me in the air

Through the pollens

Of persistent hope

Some will dry, some will fertilize

And some will just cope

With the resolve of time

To consign the creative force

Of every seed

to an uncertain  field

where birds will find it too far

shadows will be thin

but the kernel will not be elusive

if you decide to let

it be

you know, i am getting an award of the best gardener tonight

 

 

you know, i am getting an award

of the best gardener tonight

I mean, the planted gardens,

 

But then who has seen the garden

in my backyard

full of plants I did not sow

full of thorny bushes that I did not remove

with some insects that I did not kill

and the birds that came even when

I forgot to feed them

Will I be even called a gardener if

 they reckoned the gardens in backyard

 

I have to live with this failure

All my life

But then is not life an unplanted garden too

And have I done too badly there

Have i?

Tell me, tell me

My dear, tell me please

 

 

ek nav agaman

tumney ab rakha hai nayi duniya mein kadam

aur bahut si pabandiyon ke beech

ek nayi swantrata ko racha hai

chalo ab is nayi rachna ki seemaon ko

paribhashit na karey

har paribhasha kuchh na kuchh kam kar deti hai

jo bhi uplabdhiyan thi jeevan ki

unke par kat deti hai

chalo uplabdhiyon ki hod se parey

kuchh naya banayey

jo ab tak nahin paya , uski chinta karey bina

jo hai usee ka parv manayey

Muskurahto mein meri kyun dhundey tumney Suman, sneha dhara mein behtey huey

 

Muskurahto mein meri kyun dhundey tumney

Suman, sneha dhara mein behtey huey

Kaunsa swapn kis gantvya ki aur prerit kab se tha, bas tha

Kaise kahun, kis tehni par kaunsa ghaunsla bas basa tha, tha

Tumney kyun dhundey merei baaton mein, sahaj swaron ke arth

Kyun laga di, artho ki pabandi merey shabdo par

Ab wo stabdh se, sehme sey, khadey hain bahar

Jao dwar kholo aur dekho, kis tarah baad si aa gayi hai

Un nadiyon mein jinkey kinarey par naav dali thi tumney

 inti aas se, itney apekshaon ki mitti se gadha tha ghat tumney

us ghaat par ab prateeksha  kyun karo

jao, sira do merey sabhi shabd diyon ki tarah

sundar lagegi diyon ki katareyn

behti swapno ke lau le aayegi baharey

un sabhi ki aankhon mein

jinki pararthano mein sirf nistabdh aaradhana ka bodh hai

kisee abhilasha ka koi arth unhey door tak bhi chhua nahin hai

aaon unhi pararthano mein ghul jayeyen

kisee diye ki lau na ban paye 

to kamse kam,

uski manjil tak janey ki lehar hi ban jaayen

do not look in the past for clues that explain your ambitions,

do not look in the past

for clues that explain your ambitions,

desires, dreams

to be some one,

some where

 

we can not wish to be insured against

all setbacks

in personal spaces or otherwise

will you bless yourself for

all the beautiful memories you have etched

in the places you walked by

will you only curse yourself

for not being able to sense the signs

of impending dust storms

because some light posts, some streets, some places

did not deserve you

 

why weigh your dreams in the balance

that you did not design

you do not know even if that was a real balance,

may be the scales were tilted against you

from the beginning

 

but so what if these were not

why let any one judge

what is the worth of your dreams,

do we need to ensure that we sow

only those seeds which sprout

 

what will happen to squirrels

and gophers and all the life

that you love to see, and nurture

 

tell me, will you see them quietly die

then donot just heave a sigh

and run, run fast on the track

that will instill in you all the power

you need to reach bigger goals,

and I agree,

goals are not outwardly embellishments

that we adorn our walls with

goals can also be to dig deep into

the abyss of our inner  identities

 from which we ran away years ago

some are doing even now, like me, like you,

like all those who are seeking meanings in the

meandering rivers

as if they will reveal those,

even if they had one

do they need to have one, as you will ask/assert

without thinking twice

 

bless you

 

that you can oscillate between these extremes

and be sane still

I have no doubt some crown prince will

Lift you in his arms and sweep clean

All the dust from the window panes

Of your castle

You have built brick by brick

All these years in your dreams

You so deftly handle



 

You so deftly handle

The impending storms

Navigate swiftly through the net

Of slowly  sprouting desires

Lest these entrap you

And in the process, make subtle

Signs that queer the pitch

for any one who

May wish to try his luck

in the unsettled waters

if those dreams are so fragile



do I care

if those who I nurtured

do not any more

devote their time and attention

to take care of the dreams

that we saw together,,

if those dreams are so fragile

that they will grow in the palms

of only  those who put the manure

in the garden, tilled, tended and fenced,

 

then may be they do not deserve to grow

if they cannot grow like the

seeds of weeds, yes, the so called dry weeds

flowing around with wind

sprouting any where they like

let my dreams be strong enough to

fly, any where they wish

ignoring my desires and cries

if they cannot defy

they will never reach the sky

make him rebel against the beautiful garden

you may keep us away

from the shadows of

your lovely sprout

lest we bless in person

and who knows

make him rebel against

the beautiful garden that

you laid out for him thinking that

it is all that makes

flowers soft and subtle and sure

of a healthy future

wish it was true

why will storms test the mountains

and why will rocks defy the streams

and why will tiny creepers on the

tall trees reach the sun and the moon

to just prove their will

think again

think again

before the blessing start showing results

and your sprout is

not following your dictates any more

 

detatched spirit is not always divorced of serene feelings of fulfillment

detatched spirit is not always

divorced of serene feelings of fulfillment

but then imagine a horse

if it fell in love with a pasture, green though it is

will it ever gallop enough

to acquire the stamina

needed to reach far

such that you rever him

praise him, love him

fondle him and bless him

 

are not the distances

necessary to create the bonds between

what is and ought to be