a mirage in my own mind

why would i be chasing  a mirage in my own mind
some times you appear brute and some times every kind
why do i sleep so little, and remain inside so tired
is it that only when we are fatigued, our defenses are down
some see me as a saint and to some, i am a clown

why do i lose the sense of my being

why do i lose the sens e of my being

after all, are not you all

pat of my own spirit,

your imperfections are mine own

your arrogance  is a reflection of my own

if i did not ket you return

all the ‘i owe yous’

it was n ot because i di dnot want to be compensated

but just that

unredeemed IOUs

might offer more tempting

horizon

to crave for

from the need to remember

you may grow taller than the oak
which had witnessed
your steps along the way
that passed through  the
cemetery where
were buried my memories
you do not use that path any longer
you do not have to, you are liberated
from the need to remember
you are free
you can
but see
the red corners of my eyes
not closed for long
why not cover these with your hands
just cover these
for ever
with nothing, any more to see