you will insist
on having your way
it does not matter
what happens to the sprouts
that wither on the way
or the tender vines lose their support
the trees hosting their hopes
are denied nourishment
why should you have your way
why should all flowers
lose their seeds
why should all clouds decide to fly away
without raining in my garden
gardner has cleaned all the dried leaves
and the lawn seems worth walking
but the paths are strewn with
expectations
of meeting no resistance
by wind, trees, clouds, sprouts, vines
O Kaali will you let the river flood my garden
O kaali
will you let the river
flood my garden
and immerse all the idols
i sculpted
from the clay of the deep pond
outside your temple
they all looked alike
i did not want to keep them
and you will not oblige me
will not flood my garden
why should u deny me
the right of submersing all my creations
in the overflowing rover
you are worried that wayward waves
will scatter them outside your temple
and then people may start
using them to pray for you
Maa Kali: will you at least once, pierce your sword through me
Maa Kali: will you at least once,
pierce your sword through me?
take out all the darkness in my heart
and let all the blood drain
which has been nourished by
my memories
unauthorized by the guard
you had appointed
outside your temple
he was worried that
if i inhale all the aroma
of the flowers offered at your feet
i might lose my way
he did not let me manure
my memories
but then all the leaves
fallen from a tree
i had planted
to meditate
have nourished them
nothing happens any more, as i wish
is this the way you show your love
O Ma kaali
O Ma Kaali: will you again forgive me?
O Ma Kaali:
will you again forgive me?
dont,
this way, you will give me license
to forget what i should remember,
and remember
what i should forget,
and the path ended but the journey began
there were two roads
one turning left and
the other ending in a bush,
after a while,
i did not want to decide
if the road should make a difference
to the journey
the leaves dried and fallen on the ground
near the bush
drew me closer
and the path ended but the journey began
this time, i will not
let the entropy of my inner self
resolve
how far will i sow the seeds of flowery shrubs
i will just walk, and whenever the
careless aroma
arrests my will
i will stop
and smile
laugh and
then let the wrinkles on my forehead erode
Just being there may be enough
Tender be the touch
You have said so often
But having broken stones
Peeled the bark
And cut the wood
May be strikes are harder
Unwittingly often
How do I soften my touch
May be by forgetting
That I do
Just being there
May be enough
Can mirror start forgiving
When I fail
To keep a word I give to myself
I avoid the mirrors
Even the mirrors of souls
Seen through those eyes
Which never tell lies
But that is not an answer
Can I stop failing
Can mirrors start forgiving
Erosion of my self
Having failed so many
So often
So deeply
Have I retained any right
To demand
Some thing better
But then
only when a
stone gests eroded
Silt and sand get made
Will potter be able to create
If rivers and rains will not destroy
May be some erosion of my self
Is necessary
To fertilise the dreams of others
Will u listen
Untiring quest
Not just in jest
I asked you to walk
Till the end of the edge
Of a tall mountain
Clothed with snow
That seemed in pain
The creepers on all the trees
Had dried early this year
Low rain, long drought
Snow sullen
Will you listen
Poems on way back
Beautiful cloud
So far
So scattered
And yet mobile
Carrying with it
Wrapped in its moist embrace
Breeze unfree to leave it
Just in case
The clouds were to burst with joy
Leaving the breeze lost and unable to contain
The laughter of lightening
Who would then see
A rainbow in your eyes,
a bit coy
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Turtles have borne the burden
Of carrying the weight of our legacy
Said an elder
When the spirit dawned
Through a pregnant lady
From the sky
Not knowing where to rest
The sea folded itself up and the earth was extracted
By the turtles and other sea animals
To let her rest and give birth to the first child
Now mothers decide
They only provide
The signs of sound, Light and life
Don’t be surprised
Don’t be furious
We seem to take long to decide
Whether to let you take pride
In what you have done to this earth
Ripped it, mined it, stripped it of its forests and the hide
Of wild life,
nature and the free moving children
Don’t be silent
Don’t cry either
Just absorb
The pain of witnessing
The life slipping through the fingers
Like a castle of sand swallowed by a haughty wave
Irreverential, obstinate and a bit crazy
Like you are, and will be
Always
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A thunder storm
A cloud burst
Or a swollen throat
And safety first
But the tired soles
Silent swollen moles
When did I feel
The rock will kneel
The punctured balloon
A dawn not too soon
Stirs a chord
Unknowingly you hoard
All the wrinkles
Quietly buried twinkles
Pause a bit
Don’t stand, sit
Take deep breath
Don’t offer a flower Heath
The journey has not ended
But the resolve of a saint on the mountain
Has already bended
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An autumn before dawn
All the Leaves forlorn
You ask me to pick up
A beautiful leaf
And I can’t find one that
Has not had her own radiance
Beyond measure
And then to tell those leaves
That one is better than the rest
How cold I do that
How will I atone for the wrinkles that
My judgment will impose
On them, unasked
I walk slowly
Taking care not to crush
Any yearning unfolded
And yet I have Been faulted
For not disappointing each leaf
Still beautiful like the rays
Of a shy sun
Just rising on the horizon
With unhinged reflections in the Sea
How do I tell
Which ray
Has better reflection
Which wave is more intimate
Which leaf has a destiny
That has escaped your imagination
How do I tell
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Don’t ever call me alone
A long time ago
My sole has gone
Not IN AN abyss of nothingness
Why do you want
To hear just, yes
I have nothing to give
Any more
And yet you wait
For Autumn turning into spring
As if smiles will pass through the sieve
And we can laugh about
As if nothing happened
When bark of a tree could shout
Don’t ever call me alone
A long time ago
My soul has gone,
Has gone
Gone
Gone
Gone
Gone
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