anil gupta's blog

Wish the road was paved earlier
You could have run faster
Don’t blame the rain
For washing away
Done of the patchwork
You had done
Halfheartedly
Dont blame the lamppost either
It was just a witness
To your walk
Away
From the worksite
When you were needed here
Light will still fall on your path
Lamp post will stay still
Stay on course

Thodi isi muskan Udhar li
Thodi swapno ki udaan li
Aur phir Tumney pooch Liya
Kyun main itna khush ho Gaya
Kaisey kehta ki jo Baaki tha jo kaafi Samay se
Wo ek Ashwasan saabhar Liya
Tumney Chhoo Liya mera man
Aur main tumhari Khushboo se sarobar hua

I know
We have sealed the window
It wasnot easy to clean it every day
Without that
Whatever we saw always seemed so distorted
Now that it is closed
Has the vision become clearer
We should ask the
Carpenter
Who lives below
And ask him
If he will fix a few more nails
So that it doesn’t open again
No matter who wishes it to be
So
Some windows should remain closed

a layer of algae
placid lake
ripples still rise
but they don’t cross the brim
of the cup
in which i make coffee
the breathing space
holding on to sounds
of cracking cups
doesnt help
so
let the coffee spill over
let the cups don’t crack
but lake will still embrace
the breeze
and you can not help it

i am not a trader in smiles
i dont store them either
dont ask for them
they are sucked by the
sponge
which i made out of
all the squeezed
lemons
fallen from a
tree in my backyard

it was not necessary
to respond
to all the barbs,

i have faced the onslaught of arrows
from your quiver of queer kind
i kept quiet
and will try to do so
even if i have to irrigate the plants
i have grown on the fence
keeping boundaries intact
i will keep quiet

far above the sky
devoid of weight,
but with a deep sigh

the stars grumbled
why did their light fall short
who will tell them
a hungry black hole anchored at their port

dark clouds soaked in the blood
as it seems
of a bird
injured recently
when you threw
some vessels in the air
breaking them in anger
and the bird sitting quietly
was caught unaware
i dont know if i will be able to heal her
but i am trying
i can not give back her nest to her
but can i not give
a new sky to her?

is it necessary
that we should converge in all spaces
can we not agree to grow hedges on some sides
so that we can walk
on the other side
why should we insist that one should
walk through
this garden
from anywhere
may be some spaces need to be insulated
from the steps of walkers
so that seedlings grown there
can sustain
not every body can
nurture seedlings
may be you are good
for breaking fences
throwing stones in the lake
to let ripples
become lines of a song
that will be sung
when you are gone
dont insist
on all sides be open
let us walk on the part where
there is no throughfare
and thus
greater safety
of steps not treading on
path closed now

i collected
all the wax
that had fallen down
when you took candles down the aisle
to illuminate your path ahead
i thought i will make new candles out of it
and some body else will use them
i am a candle maker
but how can i
ensure
how do you hold the candle
fake or otherwise
the light is there
get hold of the ray
that reflects in the tears
that are here sometimes,
sometimes there
do i care?
do you care?
window pane has become a mirror
because of the foil you pasted
to keep light away
this darkness is your invention
dont blame the wax i collected
or candle i made