there was a little girl who did not know enough about saying no to any thing. If some body asked, will you smile, she will smile, if some body made faces, she would echo that. one day, another girl, let us call her kshama asked the little one, called by her family as shama( she was also fiery, tumultous in her temper and some times unpredictable), why do you respond in affirmative when people ask you things? shama said,” you know most people treat litle kids as robots, they know that we are not robots, but they still expect us to behave like the one. i sort of want to forgive these adults their naivette and thus just sort of oblige them!!:
Kshama was not convinced. she asked her parents about shama had told her and parent laughed loudly, and agreed that shama was very smart, if she said that.
next day, kshama asked shama, how did you figure this out. I never knew that. Shama said, you know, whenevr these folks used to see me as a toddler, they never paid attention to what i wanted, what i thought, whether i wanted silence or solitude, they thought a little girl is an object of fun, game, play and thus regardless of my moods and feelings, they wanted me to play act as they wanted. I was tired o f them but then if i did not do that, they just persisted and some times threw me in the air. i felt scared and they laughed. i decided to succumb, and give in, ah!!”
kshama was startled by this revealation. She had also gone through this but never told any one. Here was this little girl, shama who seemed to know it all. But then kshama thought, will she really learn any thing from shama when she had her baby. Even shama did not know,
what kind of adults this world produces, why donot they learn ever even such simple things?
shama has decided to start a school for parents to teach them how to deal with babies. BUt then she is too young still, is she…..
do i know really?
why do we learn ever
why do we learn some lessons
so soon to become cautious
and responsible
why not just be,
irreverent, irresponsible and undefined
but then how will the world deal with the chaos
that is not my problem, said the kid
who had been told thousand time to grow up
as if he wanted it, really
when journey is not just the purpose
when journey is not just the purpose
it is life
moments stitched together by a fiber of soul
scattered all around us
though we search it under
microscope and complain when we can not figure it our
we go to the hill tops and look for it through telescopes
but the we do not clsoe our eyes and just stand
near the abyss
of nothingness
when the prayers at your altar went unheeded, O kali
when the prayers at your altar went unheeded, O kali
i did not stop praying
i still brought fresh flowers every morning
from my garden
in which the well had gone dry
but i wanted to try, i did try and kept fragrance in your temple intact
today when my garden has dried
it has not rained for so long, as you know\
even my tears do not suffice in nurturing the flower beds
will you accept my prayers without any offering?
a knock at my door by dew in the mroning
a knock at my door
by drops of dew in the morning
i got up
and saw an avalanche
of indifferent smiles of snow
i did not know,
if i should let snow come in,
and let the heat inside be swallowed
or close the doors and the windows
to keep away from cold calls
i am still not sure
koi is tarah kyun baichain ho jaata hai
koi is tarah kyun baichain ho jaata hai
jyun kisee khet me kisee neel gaya ne aatank machaya ho
apni bhukh to kam mityai ho,
lekin jyada barbadi machayi ho
kya tum bhi asiey hi ho
sunayi kam deti hai tumhari awaaj
lekin shor har samay rehta hai charo aur
kahin wo to nahin
kya unhoney pukara
kya kisee pabandi ka ant hua ab saara
when you decide to manifest the meanings so deep
when you decide to manifest the meanings so deep
that i am at a loss of words
not knowing where to begin, where to end
what to say and when to keep quiet
i just sit tight
waiting for drops of rain
at least to soak me in
but then its seems to be a drought this year
some have started to migrate already
but when will get green pastures
come there way
when a soothing cloud passed over the sky
when a soothing cloud passed over the sky
i was sitting as if awaiting its going away
i did not know its shade will make me run away
from sun for so long
but now in scorching sun
i have to walk, a long way off
without any cloud to extend its shadow
on my path
but then let me pray
let this cloud rain
some where where a garden needs her rain much more than me
i am used to walking under sun any way
kachhey hiron ko tarasha hai mainey
kachhey hiron ko tarasha hai mainey
kai bar, baar baar aur unkio chamak se
hairan bhi ho gaya hun
par ek baar kuchh aisa hua ki aaj tak hairan hun
aakhir us pathhar mein kay tha
jitna tarasha
utna hi wo kuchh merey jaisa ho gaya
thoda teda, thoda ajeeb si ulhjano mein fansi hui
hansi jaisa
ab to wo heera bahut khubrsurat ho gay ahai
merey haathon se door
kahin aur uski chamak aasmaan
ko chamka rahi hai\
aur mujhey samjha rahi hai\
kaato, aur kaato, tarashao kachhey hiro
bas yahi kaam hai heereytarash ka tumhey mila hai
apna kaam karo na
have been grinding rough diamonds
have been grinding rough diamonds
for a longtime
but then one day
i discovered a very strange stone
more i sharpened, more it became like me
angular and with all kinds of queer angles,
but then as it started shining, it could not stay rough
any more
and i was allowed to touch only rough diamond stones
now it shines
and i still try to polish but then my cuts
are not so sharp
any more