when the leaves will fall and not rot,
u may wonder
what is sacred about this spot
i wil not cry and wail
but the truth shall, even then, prevail
dont ask me, why did i not stop
the tears rolled by and heart still decided to hop
i am sure, you will understand it again
as you always did, whether it was drought or rain
when the reflections raised a doubt
every thing has become a suspect today,
no reflection is assured
of its sanity
why has this happened
is it because rays of light are impure
or is it that surfaces are corrupted
or that the air is polluted
when the detours of diehard river didn’t reconcile
when the detours of diehard river didn’t reconcile
what was not tallying
in the account book of
a time trader
i asked him, declare me bankrupt,
will that help you
tell me
i cannot pay back
all the debts that i incurred
when you were around
regardless
of the banks being dry or wet
waves settled or unsettled
following their own rhythm
why should we deny our fallibility
is not it true that
we are often too sure
of what we think, do, know and feel
but then have not we often faltered in doing so,
why are then we so sure
when the curtains had already been taken away
it is not easy to be prudent taken in by the tensions of desires that delay and the trust that will sway pendulum of moods, i am aware of the fire and the ice that burns slowly and then gives way you had decided to take away all the curtains from my home while leaving it the other day but you left so many other weightier things behind did you want to see through the windows whether i had cried when the garden on the top of a hill was denuded the view from the top might not have been clear that day lot of clouds had decided to come in the way they rescued my tears the dance of my tears was not witnessed by the golden gaze of those eyes which have now turned away very far, for very long
when the curtains had already been taken away
are they the doors of my heart
when the drops were bolder, they fell slowly why do they love each other so much why are they not able to live away from each other why have they made a nest in the corner of my eyes why have they decided to appear when they like and disappear when i don't like but sometimes they appear when i don't want them, are they the doors of my heart which opens at will and allows winds of pain to come unabated it seems they have been unhinged they have not realized that i will swallow them all of them and not leave a trace even if eyes betray, and the reflections dont stay any longer, here, there or any where
march 16, 2011
when the sparkles fly away
dont through so many stones in this lake,
it has a tenuous contract
with its banks
who knows who gives way
may be smiles have littered your path
may be smiles have littered your path
all the way
from where you started
but you know
it is not easy
how to sweep the floor of shadows
of smiles that you borrowed
from the womb of volatile volcano
of wishes unfulfilled
may you get your share of smiles
always.
else
volcano will erupt and its ash will scatter
over your garden
from which will sprout
so many memories
soem full of smiles
and some
let me leave that
why did you tear that page
why did you tear that page
just because you did not like
what i wrote on it
you tore it
will you tear all pages
from your life
on which i had written with my breaths
the lines which you can not recite even now
you could never recall them
dont play that music please
dont play that music any more, it cuts through
all the curtains i hung
all the walls i erected around my fortress
dont let night creep into this fire room,
always lit so intensely
lest no shadow shows up on these walls
dont sing so intensely, o river, flow away
just flow away
why tell me the toll of rocks you broke on the way
the culverts of love you swallowed
banks of patience you overcame with your persistence
dont tell me, river flow away, flow away
just flow away