anil gupta's blog

did i complain ever
for your saying no
but i also did not relent in my pursuit
of affirmation,
even if assertively
and obstainetly
the rock refised to give way
to the stream of tears
that were draining
a lake of my own creation
i-n-s-i-d-e
deep
inside

the cave of curious
but concerned desires

dont ask
i will have a good reason
not to answer
but then why should we ask at all
why can’t we understand
can not silence be our code language

think
thought
threadbare

last night
i was soaked sufficiently
in the shower of your grace
wet, but dry inside
was hoping to be punctured
by your pungency
oozing from every pore,
the molten lawa paved the path
on which i wanted you to walk
to reach
wherever you wanted
now or in future

i am not sure
clarity always counts
sometimes
fuzziness helps
it masks our
hesitation
paints our intention
with piety
and purposelessness
is it necessary to be clear

Did not gather all The pebbles
That hurt my feet while walking
Some were pushed aside
Some lay buried there
And some still haunt me

May be they made me pause
I could see only then
A white flower In a green dark bush

i will give you a small gift
some thing you may not cherish, or you may
some thing you might consider trivial,
but for that you will have to close eyes, become quiet
and imagine that sky is not only blue, vast,
but also has a solitary cloud
that is lost, aimlessly wandering,
wondering if it will rain
where it should not,

or not rain at all

‘2000

despite all the expanded arms
clouds were not sure
if he will hold all the drops
that will shower
should wind stop

lambi rassi
chhoti khunti,
tootney ki tayyari
par merey bandhey rehney ki majboori

baat agar rassi ki hoti
to kuchh ganthey bandh leta
uljhan to us chardiwari ki haithi
jikey baahar main tha
aur jiskey bheetar ki saari jameen tumhari thi

will you just stop here
will you throw away the prop there
play is yet to begin
the sound test is over
but will viewers see all of this
what you wish to say
and what you wish to hide
will you just stop here
walk on, walk on
a few moments more
when teh curtains rise
you can decide to be there
quiet
still
stubborn rock like
unmoved by the anxiety of all around

will you trust
that every evening
i asked Kaali
how did your day go today
i am aware
the echoes of my prayers will reach
the steps of the temple
where you pray
we pray
she prays