fatigue of failure

will this be the end
now
of such a long ordeal?

i have gone through it
hoping that pages will be turned

new careful concern will emerge
leaves on the edge of the road will
now rot slowly
manured beds will let weeds grow
because i will not till
them
will not sow seeds of flowers
that were lying with me
i have thrown them in the lake,
not too far
from the place where i had heard
resolution of devotion and
commitment to the cause
once

this made the paving of the path worthwhile
now, i just want to walk away
i am tired
and i can’t resist/refuse/revoke fatigue
of failure

a thought

It’s not easy to be patient with paradoxes of unfair expectations and unequal responsibilities, but seesaw of life demands that all the time

kisee toofan ne apni nao ke mastool ko puchkara hota

aanchal mein sir thoda mera chhupaya hota
aasman se girtey sitarey ko apne balon mein
thoda sambhala hota

kisee toofan ne apni nao ke mastool
ko puchkara hota

kisee sookhi jameen ke garbh mein
beej ummeedon ka ugaya hota

kisee aasmaan ke tootey huey indradhanush se
teer samudra ki talahati tak chalaya hota

kuchh der aur intzaar kar ke
kisee pathik ki thakan
ko mitaya hota

kiseee ke sir ko apne aanchala mein chupaya hota

Thank you

Having closed the chapter
I don’t wish to open it again
Don’t call back
The bell will not ring
And the drops will not fall
The dew has dried
And I have learnt my lessons
Thank you