31 kali dance, so what

torn apart 
i lay there
on the stones ( of the railway track)
that had been brought from a mountain
on the top of which
i had longed to climb and sing
and dance
now that i have lost my limbs
i wish to dance even more
hold my arms that
stretch within me, you can not even see

kali 30 of perseverence in vain

detours of desires

are not the pathways

on which one ever finds

peace that beguiles

and luls one to assume

that the end is near,

the fire is now determined

to consume all the leftover memories

that were the seeds

of my poems

delete them,

lest they envelop the air

which we breathe

and so may emerge

a being that is absobed

completely by the passion

of perseverence in vain

kali 30 why do you display all your trophies

why do you display

all your trophies of vanquished souls

and some memories

that you dismiss by your loud calls

for not bearing with

the audacity of devotees

who come every day

even if you refuse to let them pray

in your temple and under your grace

how have you become so brute and

have still a glowing face

Kali 29 you can not let a weak soul be worthy of your anger

you blessed me with your grace

when i was lying on road

with an entangled lace

small, slow and subtle

was your smile

but it took me a long while

to understand why

that day, my fall did not concern you

though  you just smiled and

did not abandon me

i now understadn

why you make me suffer

you can not let a weak soul be

worthy of your anger

and hate

why do i write about pain

why do i write about pain

why

what makes the roads i have walked on for so long

suddenly sparkle and glow

stars in your eyes

light up

when sky is dark

but you walk on the milky way

as if scattering smiles

from over there,

uncaring, unconcerned

yet involved every day

in keeping track of my pain,

as if it gives you an umbrella in rain

Kali 27 when did i say, i am not fallible

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When did I say, I am not fallible

But you bestowed honours 

And bound me by the vows 

That I could not keep 

I am as devoted to you today as 

I ever was, O Kali 

I still do not know 

Why I can not erase the marks of kindness 

Of those who nurtured me so 

That your anger can devour me 

As if fattening a goat before sacrifice 

Kali 26: when the devotees go away, what do u feel



When devotees have withered away

From your courtyard

Some after waiting to be blessed by you

Some getting their prayers answered

By even your denial,

But is denial by you not a kind of

Affirmation,

What do you feel

When clouds feel shy of the

Reflections they see

In the lakes around the

Meadows

Clear and yet confused

Why should reflections be not as serene

As the thoughts

Are you saying that

We have right only to think,

Not feel or do enough

Lest thoughts strike chords

In your heart

And u cannot deny

Any more

Wishes of your ardent devotees

will u wait till the end of the world

or leave me on the threshold
of a tired evening
when you were in a rush to leave
and i was just getting ready to
open the window
so that you could see the moon
ascending on the horizon
withot any burden of  memories
or for that matter
the meanings
that need explanation